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Friday, September 25, 2009

This isn't easy for me

It's too hard right now

I'm so worried and I'm not taking it well

I hate not knowing when she'll be home

I just want things to be normal

I try to see her and stay with her as long as I can but even then I feel like it isn't enough

There is so much pain in her eyes

I wish I could just make it go away

I spent nearly half of my 45 minute drive home weeping

How can she be so strong during this any I'm so weak

She doesn't deserve this

I wish I could take care of her like she always takes care of me

I'm powerless

All she wants to do is go home

It breaks my heart that she has to stay in that place

She does so much for everybody

Why does it have to happen to her

She looks so fragile laying in her hospital bed

It's just really hard for me to see her like this

I know I probably have said that already

and I don't care

Please. . . I just want my baby back

- You make me better

1 comment:

dp. said...

please know that God is watching over her, and her strength should be yours as well. You love her so much and seriously B you have me crying. Place all your fears in his hands, emotions are justified don't get me wrong, but fear not bc there is a purpose. ive known you a long time, we have a" internet friendship" although i have never meant you in person I care a lot about you, and seeing you hurt affects me. I was there when she wasn't and there when you said you thought you found the perfect girl and was thinking about making it official. Write it helps, cry it helps, being there it helps it's all you can do.